Inner politics...blah blah blah

Ah yes spring is here, the time of newness(?) and freshness change and growth. So what do you have to say this is where you get to start the new year for really! does this also mean forgive too? I really wonder, it say to forgive is heavenly...what exactly does that mean? (goin churchy on ya) It says in the Bible, that God s a jealous god and he will forgive whom he will forgive but it unto us to forgive all! But then we are to fashion ourselves unto him!?(in other word as we teach our children too do as I say not as I do). ah! So know I have vented and time to start.
This particular blog will kind of be a lot of venting (it is spring).
Rumors and gossip vs. caring and worry, how does it break down, simply, when you pass a verbal message on with the intent to do harm or defamation it is a lie or rumor or gossip(gossip meaning the bad kind), but even in the best of intentions kind get you the wrong results right !?
I've always been pretty oblivious and or ignorant towards rumor and lies but when they effect you loved ones and or family it gets pretty hard, Admittedly I am not the perfect person that you all think of me as (Hahaha) and have my faults yet I do not intentionally try to hurt anyone!! this I speak the truth. after 10 years of working behind a bar, I've been the hearing and listening ear to many a story and have been able to see the effects of the rumor on lots of people, including myself. And I still cannot see the satisfaction of it! how do you better yourself by belittling someone else? And the chicken hearted type of person especially who says or starts out like this, "don't say I said anything... or I didn't say this but..." if you don't have the guts to face up to it then don't say it!! Furthermore if you don't know who said it and you pass it on have the courage to be the origin of the rumor! cuz you are!
So what is the attraction to it? to be the one who knows about everything? or the center of attention! don't get it! that is it for the rumor thing but what about the ones who don't do it to harm you but do it out of caring, you know the type that comes and says " Hey, I heard about so and so... is he/she OK? can they do that?" what this does is puts pressure on the person to act like society want them or thinks they should act. Do you act accordingly?
Which person are you ? If you hear that there is a rumor about you what do you do ? do you; 1- get revenge by saying something about that person, 2- get angry and find this person and beat them senseless, 3- ignore it and go on. I try to be number three but I really am getting tired of all the bs going around! just to let you know this would have been a three page long venting tour about 2 weeks ago but I have since cooled down and am now just wondering what gives the soul fuel to keep the jealousy going and revenge flowing. Why does bother me and when did I stop being amune to it!